C_M_A_Y

by CMAY

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1.
For the first time in my life I like the man I am 05:12
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Feels like I’m living in a dream
 Everything i touch dissolves to nothing Standing back and watching things happen Powerless to do anything about Feels like I’m living in a dream 
Everything I touch dissolves to nothing Feels like I’m living in a dream Feels like I’m living in a dream I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am 
Feels like I’m living in a dream Standing back and watching things happen 
Reaching forever 
 Without grasping Life without you is a bad dream
 Always reaching out for something And never feeling a thing I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am I like the man I am For the first time in my life I like the man I am Feels like i’m living in a dream Twelve months on my heart’s still broken i don’t love you anymore but I’m a door that doesn’t open I wake up from my dream and see the world true, I can see myself but I don’t recognise you What I wish I could find is so elusive I’m so tired of chasing becoming self abusive And I’m sick of writing songs to you lusting over feelings over love that wasn’t true If I walk down the street and I see you I don’t know what I’d say but every word would be true.
2.
84.23 03:52
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It’s not just the days I think of you It’s the nights that hurt too When you’re all that’s on my mind And all the things I’d do to you And it’s not just dirty things But the tender too To hold you in my arms To feel a love that’s true But I can’t keep going This obsession I’ll fight If I could just forget you For forty days and forty nights To run my hands over your skin And feel yours over mine You’d always be safe from harm And we could live outside of time I’d lie at your feet if you wanted me to Degrade myself and die for you If that’s what it took I just want to be near you whenever I can I can’t imagine the joy of just holding your hand

 But I can’t keep going This obsession I’ll fight If I could just forget you For forty days and forty nights
3.
This will never be the same again 06:21
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If I could love you the way that you need You know I want to, I’ve been on my knees What I’ve lost is all I had to give What’s left ain’t enough for two people to live I find myself wanting to cry I feel it inside but my cheeks remain dry I’ll never let you know me Because to know me is to own me I can tell by the look in your eyes This will never be the same again I can tell by the look in your eyes This will never be the same again This will never be the same again This will never be the same again This will never be the same again You know I’ve wanted you so bad My desperation’s so thick I can feel it in my hands But my love is a prison of projections Not love to be loved, but to be overcome I can tell by the look in your eyes This will never be the same again I can tell by the look in your eyes This will never be the same again I can tell by the look in your eyes This will never be the same again I can tell by the look in your eyes This will never be the same again
4.
Obsession is not romance 04:27
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I’ll fight myself I’ll hate myself ‘cos I can’t help myself from lovin’ you It’s only been a week or two but baby I know, I know that it’s true The thought of you makes me sick but I don’t wanna go back to the way I was Tomorrow I could love myself and hate you, or hate myself having only love for you Or I could call that girl from before and wind up naked spread across her floor Reality will find me dick in hand tryna shake myself a wiser path I’ll sit inside my room and dull my eyes with some flashing lights Imagining what it’s like unaware of every little thing I write I’m talking to myself again knowing that I’m not doing myself any good How could I talk to you when I’m yelling to myself things I wish I knew I’ll fight myself I’ll hate myself I’ll tell myself that you’re the only one for me I’ll hate you when you leave me and I’ll tell you it’ll kill me if I am lonely I hold you down and tell you why I love you and why you love me I’ll kiss you til my my lungs are full of only air that you breathe
5.
The Boy On A Girl Shaped Island 05:33
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And there I sat, in the midday sun Peace at my side, sand in my hair Salt water lapping at my toes Coconut milk and diving for clams I feel like I’ve found paradise Just being here makes me glad I don’t want to visit anywhere else Just being here makes me glad Just being here makes me glad I can see what I’m doing is starting to change things Everyday there are more clouds in the sky And from over planting the fruit is growing dry Wind sweeps across the ocean and things long forgotten begin to wash up on shore And the island begins to get smaller And the island begins to get smaller And the island begins to get smaller As the sand recedes I’ll float into the ocean And again I’ll drift aimlessly Until I find another refuge And again I’ll drift aimlessly Until I find another refuge And again I’ll drift aimlessly Until I find another refuge And again I’ll drift aimlessly Until I find another refuge And again I’ll be the Boy On A Girl Shaped Island

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released November 20, 2017

All songs written and recorded by A.P. Morton.
Double bass on Track 3 performed by Cal Barker.

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